In one of my earlier posts, I mentioned that I was in the midst of some existential crisis; my time at Rutgers University has not cured me. To be thrust into such a large, diverse environment was—and still is—very frightening. Yes, there’s so much room to grow; but where? Up? Down? Why does it even have to be on a one-dimensional plane?! I starting to ramble (thankfully I caught it early)…basically, I can’t shake this feeling that I’m insignificant. For some reason, my peers seem absolutely brilliant and goal driven, and I’m utterly confused, in every sense of the word.
Of course, that isn’t the case, and I shouldn’t compare myself to anyone (it’s like a sickness). But that doesn’t solve my problem—what makes me different? What do I excel in?
On that note, I’ll go to bed. Sorry for the short post.
-Ryan Feuer, 10/18/11